It has taken me sometime to be able to write some of this down. Even now it is a bit hard for me. I always try to see the positive even if the negative is shoving itself in my face. Such is the story of my husbands death.
Some 6 months before his passing, I came home from work and found a small brown vial on the coffee table. I asked him why he had that particular bottle.(it was nitro for someone that has heart disease) He told me simply that the doctor had made a mistake. I did try to tell him that they don’t make mistakes like that. However, the bottle disappeared. I never saw or heard of it again. Also unbeknownst to me, he had refinanced the house, my car and taken out another insurance policy. He had also come to me and made a request. One I really didn’t think I could handle. He had asked that if he died before me, would I be the officiant for his service. I really did try to plead with him not to put that on me. Being a grieving mother and widow would be enough on my being. But he persisted. He told me that I had the strength to do it and I made the promise.
After his passing was when all this would come to light. He was right. I was strong enough to give him the eulogy that he deserved. I was sitting in my bedroom one morning getting ready for work when some of this started to sink in. All the presents were bought for Christmas. Something I still have yet to copy to this day. I wait till the last minute. lol. But there they were. I realized that God had set me up. In a good way. He prepared me for this horrible event. And for losing my job shortly after my husband passed. It was all a set up. A divine one.
Before my husband died, I had made up my mind that I was going to step down from my management position. Just be a full time associate. However I wanted to wait until after the holidays to say something to my husband. Never got the chance. God answered that too. As angry as I could have been, I talked to God. Let Him know I really wasn’t happy about the circumstances that He chose. However, I knew and still know that everything happens for a reason. I would get through this with His help. Its been 6 years since. I will always miss my husband. I believe that will never go away.
How many times in our lives do we argue with God? Tell Him how unfair it all is? Life IS fair. Its the people on this planet who are not. Have faith that whatever storm your going through, that there is a Divine plan. We just have to have patient. Yes, I know that is hard to do at times. Try to see the magic that God has given us. The blessings that we often over look. Make an effort to see the positive in everything. And yes there is always a positive. You just have to want to see it. I know that it may seem that I ramble. Such is how fast my thoughts fly and how slow my fingers are. lol.
I hope that this finds you all well and very blessed. More to come later
I know it’s been quite some time since I have posted. Much has happened and yet again, nothing has happened. lol.
I had started this blog a couple years back and then never gave it the attention it deserved. As I had stated before, I truly hope to inspire others. Just by putting up my life and how God has worked in it. Hopefully it will serve to help others to see the magic and miracles in our every day lives. I truly hope that this finds everyone well and ready for the new year ahead. I will post more later. Thank you for being a part of this blog.
I will be the first one to admit that I am no angel. Just because I’m a Minister doesn’t mean that I don’t make mistakes. When I get up in the morning I set my mind on doing the right thing. No matter what happens during the day, I will have a good day. I will always do my best to find that silver lining. Being human it seems to be a bit hard for us to get along with each other or to have empathy for one another. God gave us rules to live by. We teach our children right from wrong. Yet we still act like children when we are adults. We have trouble handling our emotions. Not that it’s a bad thing. Love is one emotion that needs to be more prevalent. Galatians 6:7 says that we will reap what we sow. So why would we still want to do harm? I personally want to have a good life and be treated well. So I treat others that way. I would much rather settle a dispute by talking and logic then with violence. It’s not healthy for us to get so upset. I’ve seen rage from many points. Some as simple as not wanting to walk an aisle over to get a can of whatever it was. We are supposed to be helping each other, not hurting. Stop the violence and start helping each other. “Don’t ask what your neighbor can do for you, but what you can do for your neighbor.”
May Light, Laughter, Love and Joy fill your house.
I have had my faith challenged many times in my life. It never had occurred to me that in my younger days that I even had faith at all. The Lord and I were not on a daily speaking basis. I thought that I was even forgotten at times by Him. Of course now I know better but that didn’t lessen the sting that I felt when nothing would seem to go my way. Here’s where unanswered prayers are still answered.
Most of us pray for things that we want. Want to change or obtain or the like. Maybe it was that promotion you wanted at work. However the idiot that has less training and seemingly less brains for the job gets the promotion. But did you really lose out on that or is it that God wants you right where you are for the moment? A greater plan just may be in store for you.
When my Husband died a few years ago and then I lost my job, I knew that God had a better plan for me. I was upset and had many long talks with God. I left Him know that I really wasn’t pleased with the situation. However no matter how upset I was with God, my faith stayed strong. I know that I will be guided to my next adventure. Or my next friend. We all must remember that we are exactly where we are supposed to be at this moment in time. That unanswered prayer may have just been answered. since your prayer seems unanswered, you may have been able to give time to someone that really needed a friend. Or helped another to get the paperwork they needed to enter school or get health benefits. And just when you think that God didn’t hear you, look again., your answer might just be in front of you and your overlooking it. Never lose faith because it will never lose you.
Keep praying and have faith that all will turn out as it is supposed to.
Thanks to all who read this. Hope it helps a bit and I will write more as it is granted to me. Yes I even have faith that God will guide my words when I write.
Hi. Welcome to my blog. I hope to be able to help anyone that is feeling alone or disheartened. I will start with a bit of a bio
I am a 51 yr old widowed mom, minister,disabled with two sons still at home. The older one has Chrone’s Disease and can’t work. He helps to keep the house ship shape so to speak. The other is 19 and still growing. He wants to attend college and get a degree in mechanics.
That’s the bare bones. There is much to our story, however I want everyone that reads this to be inspired. As a Minister, I believe that I am a living example to others for God. Too often in today’s society, we lose the simple plans that were put out for us. I could always quote other religious leaders and I probably will from time to time. lol. Why mess with it if the words work?
I will post more later on the bio bit. At this point I will post a list of characters.
I have four grandchildren
Oldest Gdaughter 8
babyboy 1 1/2
I really hope that you will enjoy my life because I know I do! 🙂